It is not that easy to see.
With his perfect physique, luxury cars and the only flowering business, 21-year-old CJ Clark will seem to have the life he dreams of the most. Instead, the new adult model is spending his days only inside his luxury pillow San Diego with a sex sheep and a camera.
Clark became raw for his shocking existence lonely in a recent interview with GQ magazine.
“Living alone in a big house is super lonely. The bigger the home, the only one you get, ”said Clark, who spends most of his training in time, watching TV or talking to other users.
The multimillion of adults joined the X -rating website when he was 18, and was an almost immediate success, earning $ 5,000 in his first 24 hours.
Now, it is at 0.06% higher of the winners on the platform. “It passed by feeling that I never had the attention in my life to like, the saint s ** t – 10,000 people were seeing me being my own.”
Despite his growing fan base, Clark told GQ that he tries to connect with people in real life, a model that began in childhood. As a student, he was diagnosed with dyslexia and ADHD, and was also tested for autism.
His difficulty at school led him to look for solo online – during puberty as his teen hormones begin to rage. At the age of 12, he had become a “dependent on pornography,” he told the magazine.
Meanwhile, he falsified for himself a community in Tiktok with millions of followers, many of whom prompted him to join only the only fans, as soon as he could legally.
New research has shown that Americans are spending 10% more time at home than they were 20 years ago, and this is especially true for generation Z, who drink less alcohol and have less sex than previous generations in age their.
Instead of having a community outside, Clark said he is the community with fans around the hour.
“I pay so much f – the money to make only the fa – I can also make them to the maximum of my skills,” he said about communicating with his fans. “Speaking to my people. Learn what they want to see more, what they like, what they don’t like, so I can be better in my work.”
Self-proclaimed “homosexual mrbeast porn” he said he holds his solo content from the 150 pound sex to preserve an image he is there for his subscribers only. But he is also not interested in sex with another person where he has no connection.
“I don’t go to bed like, ‘UGH, I would like to have fucking someone today,” he told me. “More like it, hell. A hug would be good.”
His program of creating the busy content does not leave much time for a life of love, however. The only girlfriend he has ever been in a long distance, he agreed, preferring to reach the only creators of the blame who can relate to the style of his unique life-even if they are false. “I know at the back of my head that I’m talking to a middle -aged man,” bemoaned Clark.
His surreal life took a frightening turn when Clark overloaded and changed watched the film that thought of Richard Linclater, “The Life of Awakening”, which thinks a series of philosophical questions. Experience sent Clark to an acute existential crisis.
He believed he would die and was live in a fantasy built on his head. “What if my brain was offset to die at a young age giving me all I ever loved?” Thought cj. “And now my body is catching. And I just got into this space of, ‘Nothing is true. It is so strong. None of them is filthy true. As, as fuck I have reached here?‘”
Clark demanded therapy after this psychotic vacation and taking into account school enrollment again while that caressing his work can become obsolete as artificial intelligence replaces porn stars.
“I’m actually happy about it,” he said for the premature perspective. “Because I think society as a whole would probably benefit essentially only, as, fewer people who were on their phones.”
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